Feeling negative

Living in the middle east has taught me many things. It has taught me to hate, to not trust people and to be selfish. I have met so many people here and realised that no one loves each other here. Everyone uses the word love so freely, always telling each other I love you but as soon as they turn their backs they would find a knife in it. People are competing on everything except on how to be a good muslim.
Women have no self esteem, they are always thinking they are not beautiful enough, they are raised to think if they dont get married young they will never find a husband. Every woman's dream here is to get married and have children, careers come last. When I look at how I grew up, among people of all colors, races, religions it has made me open minded, I accept and truly love most people and I can say the same about the people I grew up around. We had so much respect for each other, tolerance, self confidence and Manners. I guess I cant blame people for their behavior or closed minded thinking or even their lack of manners. The benefits of living in a muliticultural community, or country is that we have no culture, everything goes, our culture is our Manners, or love of following rules and our Morals, even our  animals have a system on when they eat, sleep and how many times a year they have to visit the doctor.
I am not a racist and we all have mistakes,  I feel grateful that I grew up where I did because I have experienced things, learned things that no one would ever learn here. I feel 20 years ahead of everyone here. It has made me love Islam more because I look at it through different eyes now. Islam is perfect but people are not.

Learning Manners will make our spiritual journey so much better.

Makkah is the greatest place on earth for a muslim, every muslim around the world wish to visit the house of Allah, some save their money their entire life, i can not complain about this place because the feeling a person gets when visiting makkah and seeing the kaba'ah is really amazing but i must complain about the people. People come here on a spiritual journey so why is it that they can not follow simple rules. Firstly the Haram Masjied has become a restuarant, people bring their food and sweets and everything, i don't know how they get it past security but they do, my problem is not the food but the mess they leave when they are done, seriously is this part of Islam to leave the house of Allah in a mess like that, if they can do this in the greatest masjied how do their houses look, it does not take much effort to gather your dirt and put in a plastic bag and in the rubbish bin, okay i know there are cleaners but their workload is already so much, they dust everywhere every day, the vacuum every day and this is a huge place now they still have to pick up your dirt and scrub where your children mess. Secondly "MEN ONLY" or WOMEN'S ABLUTION AREA, why can't people read? Its written in arabic and in english and i think maybe in urdu too, i can't tell the difference between arabic and urdu, i found only women in the men only zamzam drinking fountains, some

Men had to wait for the women to finish filling their 1000 bottles before they can approach the drinking fountains, signs and rules are there to make it easy for us and protect us against mixing, In the women ablution area there were some women in niqaab taking wudhu i was one of them and all of a sudden a man decided to walk through for no reason, he could have gone around the wall and another came to fill his water bottle, the walls are made high to protect our modesty but then you get men like that that leaves us feeling violated. What happenned to considering others, we have so many teachings of hadiths on how we should behave as muslims and treat each other but people just don't seem to care, love and respect each other, the way they treat each other, talk rudly and push is just atrocious. No wonder we are always at war with each other. Learning simple manners like excuse me, please, thank you, making a que, and following signs will make the worlds difference.

Umrah

A thought just occurred to me, even though I have been on umrah before, I have just now come to realize that I am in a city surrounded by only Muslims, the hotel has only Muslims even the workers are muslims. I will never need to ask where the halal food section is. Subahan Allah.

1 Year out of South Africa

Tomorrow i am going for Umrah insha Allah, this will be my 3rd time in the 10 months i have been in Saudi Arabia, time went by so fast. I live in the most boring town of Saudi Arabia but i had so much going on for the past 10 months, I have gone to Umrah twice,  i have worked as an English teacher, Had my parents here for 2 half months, had my mother inlaw here for 2 months, traveled to Egypt for 1 month. made tons of friends and went a little sight seeing, although there isn't much sight to see

Take a step back and Look at the Life - Poem

Take a step back and Look at the Life

Do you deserve the Jannah from Above

Did you fill your heart with Allah’s love.

Are you following your father’s track

Or have you joined Satan and turned your back

Is THIS the message your father gave and is he satisfied

Or have you joined the kuffaar in the evil and defied

We live in the Non Islamic country so does this mean we are non-Islam

Or are we fighting the war with our Satan for salaam

Did you marry your wife and raised your children for the Earth

Or for the heavens so that when you pass on they will continue the good for all its worth.

We are not to good to become bad and

We are not too bad to become good

There is a new Muslim in the house

Will you teach her and her spouse?

Or will you neglect your duties

And concentrate on the worldly beauties

Every Salaah she makes because of your preaching and actions

Allah will give you also recognition

Satan is happy if we don’t make salaah

Because he actually is trying to make us kuffaar

So lets put the pride away and feel the Great relief

Of acquiring as much knowledge of our belief